so tired# LES - 同女之舞
N*f
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Just finished a long call. I'm so f tired...
For almost five years, I've been following her.
She left the first town where we met, for two years, we suffered back and
forth.
For her, I came here. No matter what, I thought, at least we are in the same
city, even though not together.
And then, she left again, this time, even further, to the other side of the
planet.
I'm doing whatever I can possibly do to keep this relationship.
I've been dreaming the future of us. I've been dreaming the house we are
going to have, the trip we are going to take together, and even kids...And
now, she doesn't want me to go, and she can't come back to here, we are just
stuck at the two ends of the world. I know that she's too busy, she has no
time for taking care of herself. I worried her from morning till night,
wondering if she gets home? if she eats on time? if she....? I so want to go
back and take care of her.I want to go back because for me, she's
everything.
But she said, without any room for negotiation :
don't come back. if you come back, you are on your own. we are not going to
be together. I don't want to fuck up your life. Don't drop everything for me
. If u back, we are done.
And also, she cannot deal with life there by herself, she needs a female
roommate.
I don't know what to say at this moment. I just feel, so tired, and hopeless
. Waiting, waiting, alone through days and nights, and still, she can live
with any random person in this world, but not me.
Taking care of daily things can be anyone, right? Why it has to be me? Why
the hell it has to be me?
If tomorrow my world is going to end, I have no complains. I just feel sorry
for my parents that, I'm such a bad daughter for them
For almost five years, I've been following her.
She left the first town where we met, for two years, we suffered back and
forth.
For her, I came here. No matter what, I thought, at least we are in the same
city, even though not together.
And then, she left again, this time, even further, to the other side of the
planet.
I'm doing whatever I can possibly do to keep this relationship.
I've been dreaming the future of us. I've been dreaming the house we are
going to have, the trip we are going to take together, and even kids...And
now, she doesn't want me to go, and she can't come back to here, we are just
stuck at the two ends of the world. I know that she's too busy, she has no
time for taking care of herself. I worried her from morning till night,
wondering if she gets home? if she eats on time? if she....? I so want to go
back and take care of her.I want to go back because for me, she's
everything.
But she said, without any room for negotiation :
don't come back. if you come back, you are on your own. we are not going to
be together. I don't want to fuck up your life. Don't drop everything for me
. If u back, we are done.
And also, she cannot deal with life there by herself, she needs a female
roommate.
I don't know what to say at this moment. I just feel, so tired, and hopeless
. Waiting, waiting, alone through days and nights, and still, she can live
with any random person in this world, but not me.
Taking care of daily things can be anyone, right? Why it has to be me? Why
the hell it has to be me?
If tomorrow my world is going to end, I have no complains. I just feel sorry
for my parents that, I'm such a bad daughter for them
