If you do love her, try to make the changes, not to please her but to become a better version of you. And think about what you really want in life. Life is short, and we can't have it all. We all win some and lose some. Make decisions and go for it. Do not leave regrets. And relax, follow your intuition, trust that the universe has plans for you in a way that's yet clear for you to see :) Best wishes.