I understand you. There was a point post partum I was extremely depressed
as well, also after I returned to work. I feel that I was not as effective
and efficient as I was before, I was not able to control most of the things
in my life including my own weight. When I have to work late, I feel guilty
for my son, when I leave earlier than everyone in my team, I feel guilty
for not being able to commit to work.
Trust me, it will all get better, you just need some time. I started
exercising and lost a lot of weight, that's the first step to make me feel
good about myself again. The exercises also made me feel more energetic. I
also learned to let go when you have to. I started to drop things off the
bottom of my priority list and be ok with it.
It's very hard to be a working mom, but the 3 things that really helped me
get out of my blue are 1) Learn to be ok when things are not perfect or not
the way I want them to be; 2) Establish a routine and follow it; 3) Do
something nice for myself. Keep fit, dress nicely, look good, feel confident.
