it's easier to say than do, I tried as hard as I could to stop the vicious
cycle (lack of self-confidence stops me from reaching my full potential,
which in turn would make me even less sure of myself), but whatever
temporary gains I achieved against this faceless and amorphous enemy never
sticks, inevitably , I will slip back into the abysmal mental state under
which I'm tortured by the combination of extreme level of self-doubt and
never dying dream of becoming a smooth-talking, always-smiling